Mindfulness and Meditation

Meditation should be done sitting, right?

I’m beginning to think that there is a flaw in this plan, at least for me. When I sit my mind has too much freedom. It looks for things to occupy it. Every noise or breeze is a distraction. I focus on my breath but then I start to notice that my breath is ragged and uneven no matter how I much I focus on making it smooth and even it seems to just get worse. Obviously, I’m not heaving or anything, so this is a delusion.

Walking meditation is better but if I do it in a group setting I tend to focus on not walking into the person in front of me a lot more than on anything else. My sangha is Chinese so they sometimes incorporate random Pureland elements such as chanting. I always end up chanting “I love tofu,” because I do and it means as much to me as the Mandarin words that our super-awesome English Dharma Group leader has carefully pronounced for us. Still not enough, really.

I’ve found that cleaning meditation is very useful for me becasue I cna be very mindful whil doing it and it’s jsut enough agitation to my body to keep my mind from wandering. Specifically, I like washing dishes. Sweeping is also good. Both of these I hated doing before becasue of their mundane and repetitive nature. This is exactly what makes them perfect meditation vehicles.

I’m alos going to start walking meditation on my own every morning. I think it might give me the focus and the metta-fuel, as it were, to get through the day.


The new blog

I’ve been considering for some time getting a new blog.

I have a livejournal and i have had one for years. It’s a personal blog and always has been. Its more of the “traditional” journal style of blog. Just whatever comes to mind and lots of silly quizzes that are much to do about nothing.

I’ve been uphappy with my username and format over at LJ for years but I’m unwilling to shell out the $30 it will take to change my format and user name and then I’m stuck with it unless I keep paying. I’m not a CSS wizard. I’m just a guy who knows how to use a computer and has thoughts about things. I don’t want my blog to be a hassle.

Also I want to get a wider audience to my blog and I really don’t want people in general stomping through my archived 20s. Feel free to do so but I warn you my personal growth¬† has changed me a lot over the last few years and what came before may not be something worth reading or even knowing about me.

So what am I going to talk about? Well if you’ve read my profile page you might already a have a pretty good idea. I’m going to talk about politics, values, as I see them, our society, Buddhism, other religions, Veganism, gardening, the law, the environment, and “green” issues. I also talk about products that interest me. I’m a Taurus so I tend to be acquisitive but I try to limit it to virtual things so as not to accumulate worldly goods of low quality and form unnecessary attachments to them. I might also mention other bloggers that I’m fascinated/in awe of.